Well... today has been interesting... Staying silent hasn't really been the problem... The real problem is communication! I carry a small notebook with me and it works, but its very slow and I feel really stupid using it.
Well, I finally got to talk to my voice teacher, Mr. Bozeman, about my vocal issues. He is trying to stay very positive, but he also thinks that in the long run, I will have to have surgery. I will return to the doctor to see how my week of vocal rest has treated my bump... Predictions are that the bump will shrink, but whether or not it will have shrunk enough to no long cause problems is another issue.
Enough depressing stuff, let's move onto discoveries and interesting things...
It really funny when I am communicating to people, because for some reason they also feel like they can't talk either... Don't worry friends, you can talk all you want, and I will happily respond in any way I can. Yes and No questions are the easiest, but I'll try to do my best...
Also... I never realized how much I hum or vocalize throughout the day... I am constantly finding myself about to hum or make little noises to the music or the TV...
I also challenge each and everyone of to try and not respond when someon says "bless you" after you sneeze... last night without even trying, I immediately responded "Thank you" and then grabbed my throat out of frustration...
Well I think that's enough for now. I look forward to a relaxing weekend... I am not going on the retreat for the musical I'm in so as to relax and heal and not put myself through my own personal hell...
I hope to hear from all you lovely people!
~The Gay Mute
Wait wait wait....you're not allowed to SPEAK right now???? What is this throat bump??? Why did I not know any of this? Clearly, we need to chat more (or not chat, as the case may now be...). I was too thrown by the new knowledge to read your previous posts, I'll try to figure out what's up by reading them now.
ReplyDeletep.s. Let me know if you want to have some quiet hang out time. I've got a really great pad of paper and some pens....